I will admit to you right now that despite all my time in Italy, my Italian is still wildly incorrect.
One time, when asking for directions I thought I said 'does that make sense?' but what I actually said was 'does that make you feel a sensation in your body?' I think this poor stranger thought I was hitting on them, instead of asking for information about the bus. Needless to say, I have some work to do.
I bring this up because I'm taking an Italian class right now and before I go to class I get really anxious because 1. The teacher is very, very scary and 2. I'm afraid of feeling like a dummy.
I've been studying Italian on and off for years. I've lived in Italy, I teach a damn course in Italy for godsake! I should be better at Italian. Or at least that's the very unhelpful dialogue going on in my head as I carefully avoid eye contact with my Italian teacher.
So, this Friday's email is a friendly reminder to accept where you're at with whatever you're working on.
Don't beat yourself up for not being further along with a creative project, your career, a relationship etc.The self-abuse does nothing for us. It just adds fuel to the self-hate fire. A good exercise for this is if you feel a resistance around something, pause and ask: what am I not accepting right now? Follow it up with the comforting reminder: you're exactly where you're supposed to be.
So if you have a little 'it shouldn't be like thissssss' or 'shiiiittt why is this so hardddd??' freak-out this week, it's all good. Know that your poor friend Christine is struggling with the same thing in a classroom in Texas with a very scary woman named Patrizia.
